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He was my escape from a confined world a world that didnt give me freedom you were my freedom to do what I wanted we baked late at night watched tv until our bodies caved into your mattress laughed and cried together I kissed your neck and washed your back you held my body and washed my hair shampoo suds all over my body freezing cold water I tolerated because you couldnt tolerate the heat of my body and my heart was it that deep this whole time?

We're a team he said to me don't forget to talk to me about these things yet you shun me out you shut me out you shut me down I love you, forever and always I didnt doubt it It was your kind of love. Not mine. Mine is forever.

Our glances became slightly longer turning into obvious stares we didnt care if it was weird not anymore did we give a shit he stood on his porch in the rain looking over at me while I turned the knob to the front door glancing over my shoulder to look back to see him looking for a reason to stay a few seconds longer

I was with him, found out there were plenty other women swooning over him the same as me I was broken found another him, I just wanted to create a happy ending for myself but got into yet another mess his heart was in the right place yet him head wasn't so many tears wasted. Why? Because loneliness makes you self destruct takes what it can, not looking at the possible consequences. Love yourself to the point of no return, love yourself enough to leave the pain in the past and endure loneliness like you've missed it.  

You are my addiction My obsession with rejection Its almost as if I created A perfect illustration of Your perfect imperfections

Pain, the on-going visitor Enters without knocking, the long awaited guest inside your home disturbing your peace, your tranquility, your body sanctuary It wanders looking for weakness to prey on picking up a piece of you too fragile to protect itself In its bony sharp claws, he says This will do for the night.. As it molds in your weakness Overwhelming you with destroying thoughts Radiating chilling pain throughout your rib cage Forcing itself out through the tough lump in your throat and out to the tip of your tongue "Why wasn't I enough"? you say reminding yourself of all the heartbreaking moments when being just yourself wasn't a

Her hand trembling slightly, she used the last of her strength to reach out. Using her pointer finger to guide the aching muscles in her arm. Pain radiating into her obliques. Accepting whatever comes out of this decision on her own conscious. Chills running down her back, anxiety filling her head down to her feet. Fighting the dark battle between want and need. Standing there surrounded by flourishing trees, feet cradled in her worn out black tennis shoes tainted by the damp dirt from the night rains. Millimeters away from his charcoal colored t-shirt. Her motion delayed. "I don't need you" she whispered. Flinching away and balling up her f

We only see ourselves as living souls. Humans with emotions, goals, treasures, and attachment Conditioned to killing for food and hoarding materialistic items But there is so much more to existence We just need to open our minds and step out of the race to see that everything on earth is here for a reason Everything has a place.